New Year's Eve

Jus another boring festive to get done and over with .
Why does ppl always look forward to new year ?
Everythin's the same , everyone looks the same .
" NEW YEAR " : it comes everytime the earth rotates once ard the sun .
So wat's the great deal man ?
WHy celebrate ? cos earth still exist? hmmm .


Later goin mary hse to " countdown " . sianx .
Btw ahboo , who u heard from abt goin to marina thingy??

-Mary
-chin yee
-jiayan
-ME
.these are the ppl who will be at mary hse later
infact , chin yee's already there . hmmm. omg


Ever wondered why humans "countdown" ?
are they actually counting down to that festive or is it to their death instead.
when the countdown reaches "1" will somethin happen ?
Will humans still exist ? is the earth still rotating .
hmmm . pardon me . i've been thinkin too much again .



u seemed to be alot better le .
hope so . sick still wan go out . sort .
ask u go see doc . say i siao .
eat panadol . until become like eatin staple food .
jus tt it's not full . and u'll die faster .
everyday sick . u no sianx ar . i see oso sianX .


I'm jus startin to think and see carefully .
the reason to why . u're running away from all these . running away from me.
the ans why you arent sad or touched . unmoved . dead .
and why u still can be u . so calm . as if nth happened .
i know . onli now .
perhaps i cant see yr sorrows n tears . but there's one thing i know n can see.
i'm not that important to u .
maybe that's the reason why . maybe i was wrong . wrong from the very beginning .


I think there's nothin much more to say .
i plunged while u floated .
congrats .




when everythin comes to an end .
you will know the true meaning of love .

DeathNote 2 "continuation"

Hmmm , hey so how did i do wif the intro of deathnote ??
NICeeee ?!? hahax , give some feedbacks ma !
hmmm, today i'm back wif more photos from deathnote .
ALSO , smth you ppl shd be VERY interested in , cos i found some very interesting photos for deathnote !! haha

1. Wanna know wat you will get by mixing "brokeback mountain" and "deathnote" ?

2. Wanna know how L was chosen (the actor) ?
Hahax . Below are the ans to your long awaited qtns!!

P.s: "i'm not really that bo liao okay? jus sianx k? "




NOte:

if you guys, and gals love L or Kira(light), pls do not continue to watch and read the following content !! I mean it (i'm really very serious ) !!



1. " Brokeback Cum DeathNote "
okay, the main ppl of the " brokeback cum deathnote "





L .





Light aka Kira .


Pls do not think that i'm siao in saying they are gays !! k!!
And be REALLY "surprised" tat L's actually interested in kira?? HAHaX






actually seriously speaking , don you ppl feel they actually look compatible ?
see the pic above ^ [L's takin a peek at Light(kira) hahax ]


Okay you ppl ready for the " SHOCK " of your life ??












Love and hate , how sweet ...





a romantic kiss ?





LOVE bItes .. OMG !!



These pics are taken from the manga (not all) and seriously , dont you think they loved each other ? How sweet , if they were to be together ? hahax !!
okay , one last one to prove L's a gay .
( do not scream !! )











OMG , saw that ??
okay , it's not from the manga , BUT still the one who draws this think he's gay too !!




MIW (Men in White )
HahaX , don they look like a couple ?? hmmm




Okay , this might seem familiar to many of you.
Those who watched DeathNote 1 will know .
But that's not the main point .
They actually like the same flavour n brand of that cracker .
OMG !! cinamon and onion i think ??


Conclusion :
I think i've provided you guys with enough evidence .
so for the rest , figure it out yrself .
whether if it's really " brokeback "
HahaX




2. How L was Chosen ?
Seriously speaking if you have take a look at how he looked like ,
before becoming L , u mus be wondering y they chosen him ?









This is the actor for L .
I forgot wat's the name le .
anyway , don you think he differs too much from the real "L"





They are actually the same person you know ?
look so diff rite ?
all thanks to make up man ! hahax


Okay let us do a simple experiment !!







L .
Before any makeup or anythin .





Manga version of L .
So let's use this as a guideline to re-create L .

So wat would we get by mixing this two together ?
want to guess ...
taking the not like L , L . Add to the Manga L .
wat will we have ?
guess guess guess guess guess

Okay , for the fans of L , do not KILL ME k !!

Hahax ...

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TA DA !!!

L Plus Manga L equals = L
simple Maths rite??
Hahax !!!

(Disclaimer)
The above info and pic does not represent the true fact of chosing tt guy as L.
All pics and info are all copyrighted by Seifer ( which is me!! ).

Btw hope you guys like what i did to L . hahax . impossible !!
Any feedback or comments , pls write at tag board , thanks .

Yr fever better ? Go see doc k ? hais , anythin call me , if u can .
PLS !! take care of yrself k? drink more water .



i'm missing you . real bad ...

TAIWAN EARTHQUAKE : 6.7
Internet's so boring for the past few days .
Cos the earthquake in taiwan was so powerful that it even heavily damaged the cables underneath the sea , so powerful sia !!
The whole of pacific area , us, korea , japan , asia are all affected badly.
Those who are more lucky , like me!! Can still use the internet jus at a slower pace.
Those who are VERy unlucky, are unable to get online at all . hmmm
So thus nobody's online, nobody's blogging, nobody ... hmmm


Countdown to new year ???
Anyway , it's three more days to new year .
This year , i dont think i'll be going for any countdown thingy .so sianx
Ahboo's goin to vivo for jj .
jiayan probably stayin at home again.
mary at home too?
judy out wif her bunch of friends .
sianxation man . nowhere to go . best is to watch a movie n countdown inside.
haha,cool lei , countdown inside cinema,maybe we'll try tat out next year.


I WANNA go OUT !!!
But i got no money , if onli i have a million dollars . sianx
wan go out buy things , go play , go where-ever ,
except for staying at home sianx , nothing to do online oso .
cant watch you-tube , cant download songs , sianx lei .
btw i think the telephone lines are affected too ,
cos nobody seems to be replying my msgs ... hmph


Death-Note 2 ; the Last name
Went to watch " Death-note 2 : The last name " ytd .
Shiok man , but they cut alot of scenes from the manga itself.
There was suppose to be two successor after L's dead but they cut short the whole story into Kira dying before L did , cos L's suppose to die before kira .
In the end , kira was betrayed by his shinigami (death-god) Ryuk .
Thus the last name was Light (kira) . And L died a peaceful death .
If your IQ's not veri high , (i'm not pin-pointing on u) you might mot really understan the whole story , cos they cut short alot of things , so the inbetween, you have got to make sense all by yourself.
Below are the people and things that you can find in deathnote 2 :



The main cast of death-note 2





Light (kira)
The first person to get hold of the deathnote.
High IQ , and wants justice to be done in his own ways.





L .
Orphan.
World known dectective , but prefer to not disclose his identity.





Misa .
Second person to get hold of the deathnote .
Whole family gets killed by a robber.
Falls in love wif kira cos he helped to execute the robber.



DeathnoteS and Death GodS





Misa's and kira's death-note
Misa's death note belongs to the deathGod ( jealous )
Kira's death note belongs to the deathgod (Ryuk)





Kira's deathgod Ryuk .
LOves apples.
loves to laugh loudly .





Misa's deathgod Rem.
Female deathgod.
promise jealous to take care of misa.



Special Gadgets





L's secret base with tons of surveillance cameras and moniters inside the base , there's just no room for privacy i guess except the toilet. hahax , WAIT , is there a toilet first ??





Dont you think this is familiar? It's kira's secret gadget!!!! (just a watch la)
It can stuff a tiny piece of paper inside wif a small pen that uses blood as it's ink.
Real cool man, i wonder where can i get one of this . hahaX




hmmm. Think that's all for today .
anyway dont think anybody's reading it cos everybody's internet is down except for a few ppl ba ? so write so much oso no one see .
It will take another 3 weeks to repair the stupid cables i think .
errr .. when will anybody be online man ??
hmmm, hungry .. (grrrr )





Ytd was a mixed feeling . happy n sad .

i'm missing u , badly ...

I know it's really over le .
I can never have you back , anymore .
Your eyes and expressions told mi everything .
I dont even have any more chance, not even one .
Can i beg u , pls !! Not to hurt mi so deep ?
Can i ... jus ... can we jus ...
can i have one last chance ? please ... i beg u ...


I'm in pain, realli veri pain ...
i dreamed of you , every single night , dreamed of us still being together ,
but when i woke up, everythings gone . u're gone .
it's torturing me , do you know ?
i really cant take it anymore .
it's too painful , too torturing .


你怎么能 ， 舍得让我这么的痛苦 ， 这么的伤心 。
难道以前的回忆 ，你一点也不想念吗 ？
难道说 ，你真的没有爱过我吗 ？
如果有 ，你怎么会舍得 ， 怎么会不难过呢 ？
难道 ， 以前所为你做的一切 ， 都是假的吗 ？
你都没有感动过吗 ， 都没有过吗？


Please save mi from the hell , that i'm in now .
i cant take it anymore .
i'm gonna collapse .
i cant take the pain anymore , i feel like dying .
save mi , before i die .
please . i beg u .







i need you , i will die , really will ...

从前只是回忆 ，回忆只有伤痛 .
伤痛变成麻木 ，麻木变成自闭 .
自我封闭的心 ，慢慢冻结起来 .
受伤后的心灵 ，永远不能痊愈 .
地球人的自私 ，让外星人失望 .
就在一夜只间 ，我败给了恶魔 .
恶魔使地球人 ，在瞬间变了心 .
愚蠢的地球人 ，希望和平存在 .
但是你分不清 ，爱与友情之差 .
和平并不平静 ，受伤的心不静 .
只是你选择的 ，是逃避与不听 .


This was what i came up wif , after seeing yr blog jus nw.
after seeing that last sentence ,
my tear drop , i dunno why ...
perhaps , i still yearn for smth tat does not belong to me rite from the start .
i cherish , protect , care and love ... still ...
it's gone ... gone so far away from me .


i WISh i could PReTend tat noThing has happened ,
i reali wished tat i could , but i CANT .
i try NOT to think , not to reminisce , not to DReam
i wished i could run away from all this .
i really wished this could end , all could end .
but i cant . it wont . it never will .


Still remember this song ?
i cried everynight while listening , even now .
remember last year ? where we were ?
at least , last year , u're still mine , and i was still in yr haRt .
if i could , i wished tat we could go back to that time .
but , i know it's immpossible ... nvm .

i felt so lonely ...

Time Check: 12.06 am
It's just 7 mins ago , that was chin yee's birthday .
(Below are the details tat happen b4 and after the party )


Task : A SteamBoat for the unsuprized chin yee !!
Members: Jiayan , judy (she's not here today) , mary , ahbOo and Me!!
Venue: Mary 's house
Time : 7 pm

Preparations before the Not Very SupRised Party !!
-1 pm
We set off to meet each other at Pioneer Mall , giant.
Mary reached first , followed by me , then jiayan . ( ahbOo n rest MIA)
Started to choose all the ingredients for the steamboat .
Start to chat about wat to wat for our lunch ( mi and jiayan)
Decided to cook nooDles (My fAV ) and tang yuan .
Pay up at cashier . Total amount : $31.50

-3pm
Left pioneer mall , walk to the nearest bus-stop to take 242 to mary's hse.
Reach mary house , n started eating tang yuan at mary hse (cooked by her ahma) NIcee
started PreParing my lunch , done by jiayan (singled-handed) thanks = )
started to prepare ingredients (chop,chop,chop,cut,cut cup,slice,slice,slice)

-4pm
Finish eating my lunch (wif alot of liao and FISHBALLS )
Finish preparing the steamboat stuff
Went to mary's room, they watched vcd while i played my PSP, haha (this lasted all the way till 6.30 pm )

-7pm
started to boil the steamboat soup base
tat sotong chin yee arrived ...
we started to eat while watching ch u at the same time
Laughed all the wat to 8.30 pm
cleared the table

-9pm
watch DBSK in mary room while i played my fav psp game again hahaX
they laugh n laugh , so loud lo , luckily i wore earpiece . hahaX
watched till 10 pm, jiayan went home.

-10pm
continue watching the sTupid DBsk thingy , then suddenly!!! my psp no batt le!! shit !!
so they continue to watch the stupid thingy until 11 pm
Suddenly !! the show " supernatural " was on ch 5, DEBUT!! OMG!!
so scary lo, ask mary quickly switch to another channel, then she there slowly slowly, luckily i ran outta the room FAST enough !! haha

-11.30pm
reach home ....



i wanna to hug you badly .... so badly

Jus another boring day without a job .

Man , how long do i have to be unemployed ? Anyway , i'm lazy la . hah
Hais , tomorrow is tat " sotong " chin yee's birthday ,
And " WE " so called the good FrienS are planning a "not Very SupriSed birthday party - Cum - stEamboat " cos to my disappointment , they have no wish to SUPRISE HER ?!?! hmmm ... nvm then .. cos she already had enough of suPrizEs in her life ?!?! haHaZ = )


4 Days to Christmas man ...
This year we've BECOME more clever , cos WE ARE NOT GOING TO ORCHARD ANYMORE !!!
We're not so stupid to go there to get SQuExXE anyMORe !!! HAHAx
This time we're going over to mary hse to celebrate !! Woohoo!!
" Wif log cakes , fried foods , turkey maybe ,and alot of stuff to EAT !! hahaX
Wat's even more BEtteR than stayin indooRs and EAT to Yr Fill MAn??
HahaX . " jus keep eating , jus keep eating , jus keep eating ..... "

hahAx . Btw , BOo Wenlingg , to yr veri much Anticipated " JJ's LIVe Concert "
I'll now AnnOuce yr VerDict !! That is ..... (drums rolling ~~~ )

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............................................................................. ( drums rollinggg )
............................................................................ (drums still rolling ..)
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..................................................................... ( spot light shinning .... )
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............................................................................ (drums not rollingg )
.................................................................... ( TA DA )


IT'S NOT SINGAPORE VERSION ONE !!!
sorry to disappoint u gal , But The concert DVD jus aS NOT u hav EXpeCted , it's from SHangHai one !! If u don believe check this website out : www.jjlin.name
hmmm ... i doubt any artist will have DVD concerts out in "singapore " ??
so sOrry ~ to burSt your bEautiful DrEam of tt singApore Concert ...
But Cheerup , he's still RETURNING back to singapore wat?? Rite?
so Don be sAd la , k ? hehX ; )

hmmm ... i'm still missing u loads .
still not used to how u're treating mi .
suan le . it's over le bahs . i guess .

my love for yuu , does not ends here ...

I dunno wat's wrong with us ?

U've changed , entirely change to another person tat i don noe.
U're no longer the yuu , i used to know ...
Probably u would say , i changed alot too ...
maybe ... we're all not us ...


Why have we become like tat ? It's so sudden? no signal , no signs , no warnings ...
Or perhaps , i just didnt notice ...
i failed to notice u're drifting so far away from mi ..
although u're physically so near to mi ...
i'm jus too naive ... too inNocent ...
IN BELIEVING ALL THOSE PROMISES U MADE OR SAID!!
U said before ... " although i cant prevent the scar from happening , but i'll stop it from becoming worser "
" i'll try to love yuu back , if there's ever a day , i stopped loving yuu "
" my love for yuu , last till the day after foRever "


Wat The?!? Haha , ridiculous ... U NV LOVED MI BEFORE !!
Am i rIght?? hmmm ... only stupiD foOls will believe in all thoSe ..
And I"M tat stUpid idiot foOl ... reali stupid indeed ...
huMans are clever indeed ... no wonder aliens want human's brains
aliens have no emotions ... no feelings ... no memOries ..
deAd . Jus like mi .


that stupid alien tot ... maybe it could still savage smth between tat human ..
it tot it's not entirely over ...
cos it tot huMans hav feelings and memOries ...
it was wRong ... so damn wrOng !!
mEmories and feElings are jus fragile and easily fOrgotten .
how can one not think of the past ?
cos huMans HATE past ! huMans onli look foRward to future .
disregarding anything about their past . cos they hav no heArt .

... dropping tears of blood ...

No job AGAIN !!!

Hmmm ... went for job interview today , it's at chin bee drive and cresent .
factory job , but crazy lo , it's from 8 am-7 pm . 11 HOURS lei !! And it's $4 p/h
SIAO !!! Such long hours , one day $40 onli cos -1 hour to eat. SIAO !!!
hais ... think have to look for other jobs le ba ..


Anyway , seems like alot of events are gonna take place soon . Chinyee's birthday comin , X-mas eve and Christmas , then later countdown ...
hmmm , So many things to do , sO many things to buy ...
yet ..... sO little time .... So little money
hAhax ^_^


I really feel like hugging u ...
but i cant ...
felt so restricted ...
wanna kiss u badly ...
that's even more impossible ...
i wan u , i wan u badly ...


Raining the whole day again ... sian
everywhere oso so wet ...
stop awhile then rain again ... hais ...
"rain rain go away ... better is dont come again .. "
haha no la, how can don ever rain , then rain's fans will die !!

hahaX @_@

I WAN A KISS !!!

i WANT , i Reali want la ... even a doggy oso got other dog kiss lei..
am i even reali WOrse than a dog??

Sianx ... everyday stay at home and rot ...
nobody care about mi anyway ...
aiya .. everyday update hor ... oso no one bother to see and comment??!!

P.s: sorry if i treated u badly today as in i shouted at u this afternoon...
sorry ~ reali sorriEs ~~



The world is selfish ... so are humans ...
care only for themselves , think only about themselves ...
love is so fragile ... isn't it? It'll be gone ... in a flash of time , where everythin would just become mEmOrieS ...

InnoCent and Naive humans ... even these meMories are fragile and easily forgotten ... wat are the brain n hart for ?!?
useless human beings ... no wonder aliens want to take over this selfish planet ..
erase the memories of men ... cos they don even know what are memoRies ..
how ridiculous ...

i miss yr kiss .....

Y didnt u accept mi ?
I've always love yuu ... yuu know? hmmm ...
我不是在跟你开玩笑 ... 我是认真的 ...

Hmm, raining whole day today .
i remember u once said : " i dont like raining season, cos there's bound to be smth bad happening ."
Hmm , i wonder if it still does happen?
It's raining heavily now u know ...


Anyway ... played pangya again .. haha . Guess wat??
I know wat's the prob wif the pangya sys le ... and now i'm Officially AbuSing the sys ... haha ..
so i have 30000 pangs in my acc and 20000 plus pangs in my new acc !! haha !! And that's not all , after the promotion , there wil be even MORE A-cash !! YES , more!! i est. to ard 15000 A-cash tat i'll be receiving, so happy!! Haha .. hey, ma when my a-cash is in .. tel mi wat u wan .. i buy for u k?

heheX =)

NO JOB AR !!!!
Hmmm ... actually wan find job wif u tmr .. but u like not interested ...
so nvm then ..
Wan find job wif mama ... then she workin at her hubby there .. sob
so ... guess i'll have to zi li gen sheng !!
sianz .. stay at home all day ..
if onli could have strike lottery or smth like tat ...
then can stay at home and slack !! haha ...


hmmm ... wat u doin nw? Always e same qtn everidae ..
but i'm curious ..
jus wanna know ...
but ... i ........... nvm ...



Big heavy rain ... could wash away everything ...
but never my love for u ...

Hmmm , just another boring day . I wanna WORK!! But somehow there's no job?!?
Aiya , jus lazy to go find jobs, why dont jobs come find us? HAHa!!
Hmmm, next year dunno wan go where, hais ... will yr decision affect my still? I dunno ...
hmmm ... boRingsss ~


It's been a week ... hmmm, i wonder if u miss mi? No ba..
Cos u're always so busy doing other stuff ..
guess u already got adapted to it ... rite?
I guess , perhaps it's alright for u to do without mi ,
cos u know ... when u reali need mi ... i'll be there .. for sure ..
but when i need u, reali need u ... u wont be there .. i know ..
i guess it's still the same to u rite? kinda of nth has changed ...
maybe ...


Btw , my ma, ah boo, hais ... to my VERI eXtrEme disappoinment ...
SHE QUITED!!!

OmG!! hais .. she said the person there bully her !! cos she's new there, she cant possibly memorise everithin over there at one shot rite?? But this dunno siao gal said to the customer : " oh, she's new here, so she most probably dunno or forgot ?!? " WAT THE !! she's FIRST day at work lei , u expect her to know or rem EVERY sinGle thin meh?? SIao ar !!
I think, most probably, tat siao gal thinks my ma is too pretty haha, so she cant take it, mus like tat say her , wah kao!! haha ...


Hmmm, i think tat pangya system has some probs!?! Cos there's a new scheme called "refer a new player and u can get more money" thus i refer my bro, and i created a new acc myself , to earn more "pangs" (money in pangya lang). Then, when my bro n my new acc reach "Rookie C" (min. to get the extra pangs)
I didnt get the pangs?? then shorty, i get it, then everitime i switch in between my two acc , my pangs increase automatically ??!?! Hmmm ... nvm then, cos it's good anyway, HAHA !!


Anyway , this is my latest character , Max . Cool rite?

Don feel strange abt y he's holding a tennis racket instead of a golf club.
Cos he's an ex tennis player , haha ... guess he loved tennis more than golf ba??








Wat are u doin nw? Wanted to msg u badly, but ...
i dunno wat to msg u ...
i dunno wat shd i say ...
i dunno if u'll reply ...
i dunno ...


Anyway can u reali sleep without yr mp3 ? It's kinda hard to fall asleep ba?
sorry~ but u're just so not free ... hmmm ... nvm then



i still do ....

Hmmm... sianz.. nothin to do at home ..
felt so lonely, so empty .. without u ... hais ..

Wanted to look for jobs today, bought the newspaper, flipped through a few pages of the "recruit" then didnt have the will and mood to continue le..
WHY?? Cos probably i'm jus not used to it,not used to looking for jobs alone .. not used to u not beside mi ...
i dont wanna get used to it either ..


Hmmm,wanted to look u up earlier, but yr mum was at home, nvm then ..


Played "Pangya" the whole day,finally got BeginnEr D le.
"Pangya" = Massive online multiplayer game, Golf game in fantasy realm.
Okay, maybe the word "goLf" might shun u off, BUT, it's not abt the golf!?!?
Haha, cos they got reali cute characters .. so jus like any other online games, don bother abt wat the game's trying to do, jus dress up yr character the way u want! So if u're interested go to www.pangyasea.com










BUT , if u dont have the patience to wait, then yuu better don play, cos it's kinda slow waiting for other's turn ...


Hmmm, my ma, ahboo got wOrk le, FINALLY man, haha.
if u read her blog, u will noe how fast she got the job, but she didnt want any ppl to know where she's workin?? Probably she tot is too embarassing ba?? or shd i say she's afraid of bumping into familiar faces?? Hmm, but it's not some kind of illegal stuff, jus ...... haha, i'm not telling u wat is it...
hmmm, her pay quite good eh ... $1000 over ... but it's permanent la. HAha..
Hmmm, ma workin, then jiu nobody chat wif mi le .. sianz ... nobody's ard ..

I ALSO WAN A JOB !!!

Hmmm, think i'm findin factory job ba .. do a few weeks or a month at least, then go for the golden travel thin (dunno have a not) haha.. cos factory pay quite good, jus have to wake up abit more earlier .. hais .. sian..
hungry... hmmm


i'm still missing u ... badly

Yesterday was our 17th months anniversary..

But it was not like before.. cos yr hart doesnt have mi anymore
i could have,or i should have beg u not to leave mi.. but i wont..
cos i'm already dead in yr hart, no point having a corpse beside u rite?
If u're reali more relaxed and happy this way...

I'll let u go... i'm serious...

i dont want u to be stress, i dont want to see yr tears...
jus promise mi.. u'll be happy

and i'll respect yr decision...
and i'll be contented...


i dont want u to feel guilty, sorry... jus wan u to be happy..
i'll still love u no matter what...

在你的心中，希望还记得有我
永远守着我的承诺... 在等候 ...

Are u really happy wif wat we are nw? I know u dowan any commitments,at least not wif mi rite?Do yuu know how badly i wan to hug u tightly,but it's not the same anymore.. 有好几次我都好想亲你，可是我不能...


U're torturing mi,do u know?u still hold my hands,hit mi,bite mi,and u still get jealous when i buy things for her.. y?


i'm reali pain... can u .. can we...
... jus be like in the past?


i always thot our love was as tough as ice,but it melts as fast as it..
cos u nv tried to keep it from meltin... u neVer!!
u jus dowan to put in any effort,cos it's not yr business rite?
"who cares rite?" it's gonna end someday or other rite?
WHAT bullShit!!! if u're thinkin like tat,y wan mi in the beginning?? cos u wanna torture mi? HUH?? i'm NOT yr toy,i'm not for u to PLAy!!!
everytime u're hurt by thoSe bAstards,who's there to console u?cheer u up
WhO?? whiCh idiot?? and when i'm hurt? who's there?? no one!!


I live in a damN pathetic world.. where no one cares for others!! at least not mi!! maybe cos i'm pathetic too!! take mi away from this hell..


let mi die faster...
quicker...
NOW!!

without yuu,i might as well die.. i mean it

现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你在泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要你的我
只要你回头

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只要能够远远这样看着你

就算伤心心里还是好想你

只要能够静静这样陪着你

就算分手还是选择喜欢你

我好希望我会忘记说
再见的声音
我不再回忆也不再伤心

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应该放晴的天气
还下雨别这样下去
我难过但是说不出口


可不可以别回头
可不可以就放手


可不可以不作你的朋友....

U say u felt great ytd,like having a big burden thrown off(said by mi).. u felt more ease,more relax...i felt terrible.. u were mine.. two days ago.. and now,hugging u seems so hard..

i know wat u want,u want mi as yr friend,yr BEST frien.. jus like i've guessed..
but i dowan..


u wan mi by yr side,but not as yr lover,
as yr frien..

i feel terrible,i dunnow wat to do,and stop sayin sorry,as if it's gonna savage anythin??
u're not mi,u wont know how i felt!!
u once said,u wont stop lovin mi,if that ever happens,u'll try to love mi back again..

innocent and naive,i thought...
how can that be possible?

perhaps u nv loved mi before...
ask yr heart truefully..
honesty...

was i even there before?

kiLL mi for godsake,let mi die fasTer,less pain,less sorrow.. no more tears..

It's all over...

in the end,i guessed the ending..

maybe i shouldnt have ask the qtn,then maybe we would still be together..
but i know clearly..



i died in yr hart a long long time ago


i dont know how i shd feel...
shd i cry?
shd i act as if nth happen?
shd i ......

die?


my hart has no feelins....



i guess it's dead ....

Hmmm,finally saw my precious ytd,hmmm,but i was kinda disappointed cos when she saw mi,i didnt see the missing of mi in her eyes like last time.She talk to mi as if we are jus normal friends.....so cold her words... hit my heart,so hard,so pain... Her eyes kinda betrayed her,it was not like before anymore. Every movement,every word,every heartbeat.... was not like before..

I guessed i died in her ....



maybe.. i wasnt even there before.. unlike others who at least stayed there for awhile.. i didnt even reach there,probably i almost did.... almost...


a pair of cold hands...
a pair of cold eyes...
that cold hug...
those cold words...

does it reali meant "over"

hmmm, i never see my precious for three whole days le,hais. Lately,she's been 24/7 wif her family. I know that's good but she's been 7/24 wif mi instead! (70 mins a day,24 hours a week) Hais, why like that lei? I also dunno..


Her head's hurting her badly,resulting in she refusing to go out of the house or anywhere else. I BITE her head, YES literally bite her head IN-aCCcidently while we were on the escalator!! haha,sorry precious,for hurting yr head.My front tooth NEARLY came out u know?!! haha,but it's still okay as compared to dear's head. Sorry !!


Hmmm.i want a JOB!! dowan to stay at home due to all those RUBBISH that's goin on.. hais..
GIVE MI A JOB,AND I WANNA START ASAP!! i'm lazy to go down for interview too actually,haha.. but i'm reali BROKE le.. even a beggar would be richer than mi!! haha

just finish watching "final fantasy the advent children"
NICE, but not worth buying unless u're a crazy fan of Final fantasy,anyway i didnt buy it cos it's in jap so i watched the FULL video on www.veoh.com haha.. yeah, it's A FULL VIDEO,much better as compared to youtube,but they have limited videos there,but u can like upload a whole movie up!! wow!!go take a look!! haha




cloud and tifa, my fav!!



i like those eyes of his..



Hmmm,first time blogging,all this stuff seemed kina complicated to mi,but think i'll get the hang of it after a few more tries,haha. Alot has happened these few days,esp ytd,but i don wanna talk abt it,gonna get toothaches opps i meant HEAdaches haha.. hmmm,if onli we can live in the fantasy world.

Name: Zave
Age: 18
Species: Jupiterian
Location: Unknown
Gender: Unknown
Appearance: Unseen
Characteristics : Dangerous lonely creature
Strong Against : Human's slow Cerebral mind
Weak Against : Humans's Emotions and feelings