Saturday, January 13, 2007
13 . 01 . 07. a date so bitter to reminisce . i guess it's no big deal to you anyway . You dont even care about this date . isnt it?
It's no longer the same . It used to be a date of sweetness and happiness .
BUt now . It's no longer there . Just another day for this big damn stupid fool to cry over with .
WHy am i so stupid ? so foolish ? i dunno . perhaps that explains love ...
Breathing in a sense of loneliness ,
heart beat stopped and forgotten after your nonchalant .
I smiled at last although u didn't bother to look .
The happiness i wanted ,
was abandoned at the mercy of your hugs .
When the flames have ceased ,
those sweet memories ,
are long forgotten at a corner .
The streets are so crowded ,
but all i could see was loneliness .
Flashes of memories cant stop ,
Still reminiscing your heart beat ,
and the scent of missing you .
I just dowan to be disturbed .
I wish i could pretend nothing had happened ,
cause all i wanted was just to hold on to you a little longer .
To still believe in your hugs ,
that would always be there for me .
I'm still waiting .
Still reluctant to walk away from it .
If only i could pretend ,
at least pretending could maybe savage something .
YOu said i'm being conceited .
When the worlds of two crashed ,
i was caught in the trap that i set .
I'm just like a ostrich ,
believing time is the only way out .
Time passed ,
just proving how stupid and foolish i can be .
Knowing that ,
your love has long gone with the winds .
What i lost ,
could never be found anymore .
i guess in the end .
All i could pretend ,
was that i un-cuffed a pair of cold handcuffs .
i wish i could pretend too , at least that would have lessen my pain .
