Sunday, January 7, 2007
. 07 . 01 . 2007 .It's been a month . so fast . Things and people changed at the speed of lightning . lightning kills . jus like how u killed me .
One glance , one look , one stare .
YOu didnt even bother to look at me .
PErhaps . it was wrong of me . to love u .
BUT , i never regretted , unlike u .
Am i right to all the things i mentioned before ?
" i'm the most un-impt person to u "
" u nv loved me before "
" you nv cared about me before , even if i died "
" i'm jus nothing to u "
I guess i'm right in saying all these .
cos if not , u really dont even bother to
CORRECT ME ?
I put myself into your shoes ,
thinkin about wat's goin on in yr life , and wat's troubling u .
BUT HAVE U ?
You jus dont seem to care , i guess . rite ?
You said :
" bud how do yuu know that i've nv tried to wan hui all this? "" just bcos i din tell yuu anything doesnt mean im not affected by all this.ni ming bai ma.. "maybe u're reali good in "
prEtending & faking innocence "
That's why i jus CANT see what's wrong with you .
I CANT SEE HOW U WANTED TO WAN HUI ; WHEN OBVIOUSLY U'RE BEING SO NONCHALANCE ABOUT ME AND EVERYTHIN ELSE .
I CANT See what u're troubled wif ?
I CANT SEE HOW BADLY U' AFFECTED ...
BY ME maybe i just dont get it . i jus dont understan , why u "look n seem" happy and calm and watever shit over this whole matter . perhaps , u yearned for it to end long ago , is that it ? I know i'm not the greatest person on earth or am i your "the perfect one " . i know someday i'll jus lose you , jus like now .
i think you're jus running away from everythin .
ESP ; ME .
Using
" duuno " as a
pErfEct excuse , to run n avoid everythin .
" i dunno who to face ?? "
" i dunno how to react ?? "
" i dunno wat to say or do ??? "
maybe u think i'm mean . but who's more evil ?
perhaps i neglected your feelings . but i suppose , i hurt more than u do .
And again , u didnt bother to take a look .
Do you really take our memories as " nothing " jus like me ?
or perhaps , u didnt have any happy memories wif me ? is it ?
Time is your best weapon against me . right ?
Let time passed , and finally , u'll get
RID of me ?
Then you don't have to answer to anythin , you dont have to make me "
NOT feeL so bad , so sad or even WORSE!"
CAn u for once . be yr real self ? or is this the real you ?
Can u stop running away from all this ? or from me ?
I know my tears and sorrows meant nothing to you , watever i do or say wont touched you , or watever that is . not even
death .
maybe u jus dowan to bother about me anymore ,
u jus think , saying more will do nothing good , saying watever i'll jus think negatively , so wat's the point in clearing up all those mess , right ?
if u dowan me to jump to any more conclusions , can you stand for your own rights ? can you stop acting pretending like nothing of the hell had happened to yourself or to me . maybe i'm stressing you . but it's already been
a MONTH , do you really need such a long time to think ? or to
act how to react ?
If u reali dowan to do anythin or say anythin ,
fine , suit you .
tears and sorrows are jus drops of water n plain emotion , perhaps that's the way u see it .
if death can lessen my pain ,
god, i would beg you to take me away from this hell .
