Somehow ,
From those eyes of yours ,
i sense something .
Seems like euu have something euu wanna tell me .
maybe i'm thinkin too much .
But i think i saw tears in yr eyes .


I'm sorry ,
perhaps i made euu felt "jealous" again ?
But this time is diff target . haha
i don like her , don worry .
What i did was jus to tease euu and to test euu out.


But u did seem jealous though , or did u jus pretend to be ?
But when i get close with her , euu turned away ?
Euu even tried to get back on me , by calling bb ? haha
How could u ever though that i like her ?

When euu know ,
That deep down in my heart .
There's jus someone that i want badly .
Only .
truthfully .
Solely .


Euu know that clearly.




Euu know who i want . .

It Ended .

Even without me knowing .
I cherish and protect .
Love and dote on .
In the end .

You left again .


I didnt know , all along .
I made euu felt that way .
I'm sorry .
Cos all along , everything seems so blurred .
I wasnt even sure ,
whether u want me .


I wanted to give up .
Stop waiting ,
Stop hoping .
Cos somehow ,
deep in your heart ,
I think i wasnt there .


I felt the same way as euu did .
Same as two years ago .
When euu were with him .
I told myself .
What if history repeats again ?


But i told myself ,
I'm sure ,
Very sure ,
and firm this time .
All i wanna is euu .
I wasnt this sure two years back .
but this time .
I ONLY want euU . . .


What's the point of saying all this now ?
It's all over .



我祝福你和他

I sat down alone .
Nobody had notice i was down .
I had long forgotten .
No matter how much i cherish .
You will still leave me .
I still cant accept the fact .
How did it end up this way .
Without you ,
I have nothing ,
I am nothing .


That day on the way home .
I cried .
Couldnt stop it from falling .
I could only walk on .
I can yearn for nothing more .
What more can i say , my babe .
What more can i do , my precious .
All i wish ,
is just to let you hear .

Darling, I love you .




I didnt bear to let euu leave . 520

I'm confused .
I dunno wat to do , how to react .
I dunno shd i keep holding on , shd i keep waiting .
Waiting for the impossible to become possible .
Are there still miracles ?


I put my last hopes all on you .
Athough there will never be a happy ending .
Just before i spread my wings to fly ,
Then i realise,

It's all but just a beautiful dream .


It happened too fast .
Ended too fast .
Reacted too slow .


It is just like what euu proposed before ?
Not a relationship , but there will still be love n care .
I dont want that .
Say i'm selfish , but this time i really want someone to belong to me wholeheartedly .
I want you .
To be my one and only .
Just you and me ,
In our little world .






I wanna love you , I want EuU . . .

I hate the no. 13 and 18 .


I thought to myself ,
thinking maybe god took pity on me .
Finally the clouds starts to clear ,
and that i can finally start to see the clear blue skies .
Maybe this time i could start anew again .
Maybe this time ,
i could really find the happiness that i lost .
Maybe . . .
this time ...

i could smile once again .


I thought . . . i really thought it's gonna be like that .


Pardon me, god , for saying this .
but i know god wont be that nice to me .


Sent me to heaven ,
kick me back down to hell .
" Do i not deserve a place in heaven , my god ? "
What have i done to deserve this . I just wanna be loved and to love .
Have i had too much sins that i wont be able to be released of .
Had i really done anything wrong ?
All i want .
Was just to be in love .

Tell me wat to do , my god , my lords .
Do i really have to be tormented in hell ,
and guard the gate of hell all my life ?


Can't the dark clouds clear ?
Can't the pain stop ?
Can't the rainy season go away ?
Can't i fall in love , again ?


Lost a place in poly , lost the love .
Lost everything .
I lose to you , my god .
I dowan to fight anymore . I dowan to struggle anymore .
I dowan anythin anymore .





Being a Cerberus it's no big deal anyway .

友情与爱情
有时只有一线之差 。
关心与爱护
两者都能做到 。
但是 ，
相差在于感觉 。
你真正要的 ，
到底是朋友的 ，
关心与照顾 。
还是爱人的 ，
体贴与爱护 ？


人类都是自私的 。
有些话语 ，
人类们说的很容易 ，
但是跟本就没有在乎到另一方的感受 。


外星人的关心 ，不是表面的 。
外星人的爱护 ，不只是话语 ，不只是偶尔 。
外星人不会什么都不管 。
只是 ，
外星人的伤心 ， 你看不到 。
外星人的无奈 ， 你体会不了 。


“ 能不能不做你的朋友 ”




fallen from the heaven to helll ....

Darlin ,




Happy White Valentine's Day





P.S : I love You 520

I gave you freedom ,
to spread your wings and fly .

I gave you freedom ,
to search for your dreams and soar up high .

I gave you freedom ,
to let you be who you wanna be .

I gave you freedom ,
to choose what you wanna have .

I gave you freedom ,
to whatever you wanted .


I gave you freedom .
I gave you ,


Your rightfully freedom .




and you left .

慢慢忘记 所有回忆
一点一滴 曾经甜蜜
过往热情 早已淡忘
以往笑容 湾下成悲
流下眼泪 化成终点
回头一看 只剩空虚
转变太快 无法释怀
疲倦的心 无奈放弃
雨季化晴 何时会到
抛弃承诺 忘记回忆
慢慢等待 雨过天晴



永远的守护使者 ， 我当不成 。
并不是我失职 ， 而是我再也不能做你的那个守护使者 。
从来没怨过你 ， 因为我相信这也不是你所要的 。
或许一开始 ， 这一切都是一场美丽的梦境 。
我们的爱情 ， 也许是一个错误的意外 。
你疲惫的心 ， 我能理解 。
给我一点时间 ， 我想 ，
我应该可以慢慢忘记 ， 慢慢松手 。



谢谢你 ，
让我爱过你 。

42 days of job , Finally ended .


I didnt feel very sad about those master leaving ,
unlike them ( chin yee , mary, jiayan ) .
They teared like hell when we were at the airport sending the masters off.
I dont cry when ppl leave me ,
unless they are someone very dearly precious to me .


" 42 days with a stranger , a special bond is created "
Perhaps this explains why they couldnt bear to let the masters leave .


After this job , i guess they might have changed alot .
Their mindset towards these china-ppl , might change quite abit .
Esp for jiayan , she always use to dislike and discriminate these ppl .
But i guess seeing how see teared for her master ,
i guess she wont do that anymore .
Or perhaps not .



Getting posting results on the 6.
4 more days ....




510 days with a stranger . bond broken .

Name: Zave
Age: 18
Species: Jupiterian
Location: Unknown
Gender: Unknown
Appearance: Unseen
Characteristics : Dangerous lonely creature
Strong Against : Human's slow Cerebral mind
Weak Against : Humans's Emotions and feelings