Wednesday, March 21, 2007
I hate the no. 13 and 18 .I thought to myself ,
thinking maybe god took pity on me .
Finally the clouds starts to clear ,
and that i can finally start to see the clear blue skies .
Maybe this time i could start anew again .
Maybe this time ,
i could really find the happiness that i lost .
Maybe . . .
this time ...
i could smile once again .
I thought . . . i really thought it's gonna be like that .
Pardon me, god , for saying this .
but i know god wont be that nice to me .
Sent me to heaven , kick me back down to hell .
" Do i not deserve a place in heaven , my god ? "
What have i done to deserve this . I just wanna be loved and to love .
Have i had too much sins that i wont be able to be released of .
Had i really done anything wrong ?
All i want .
Was just to be in love .
Tell me wat to do , my god , my lords .
Do i really have to be tormented in hell ,
and guard the gate of hell all my life ?
Can't the dark clouds clear ?
Can't the pain stop ?
Can't the rainy season go away ?
Can't i fall in love , again ?
Lost a place in poly , lost the love .
Lost everything .
I lose to you , my god .
I dowan to fight anymore . I dowan to struggle anymore .
I dowan anythin anymore .
Being a Cerberus it's no big deal anyway .
